The Conspiracy.

I wish I didn't delete all of my previous postings on Myspace, but unfortunately, I did. Just to summarize, here's what's happening.

Me: 30-year old biological father of a 2+ year old son. Desperate for a divorce. She has all the forms.
Her: 30-year old jaded local supermodel. Has 2 sons, one with me. The other one? Even she doesn't know. Desperate for divorce too it seems, but she's taking too long to return a GODDAMN form.

We are both currently dating. She started it first. (I know, I know, childish)

I refer to the guy as "Mr. There He Is". That's probably because everytime I see her, he's there. I think he's also the designated driver of her new 4-wheel-drive. I think it's one of those crappy European ones. And it's red.

I can't look at her face, or listen to her voice. It drives me up the wall. It should, because I pretty much gave everything and gambled everything to be married to this woman. All I got in return was all bullshit. Like, a HUGE lump of bullshit.

Yes, the forms are still with her (3 months and counting) We've basically been separated since May 2003. That's a long time for emotions, especially hurtful and bad ones, to brew. I used to love that person, but she tops my shitlist right now. Her boyfriend 'scolds' me for not being a good father and for posting 'stories' on the Net, but hey, I'm articulate in writing, that's my gift.

And these 'stories', yes, they are all true. Like what Dan Brown said in the beginning of 'Angels & Demons' and 'The Da Vinci Code", they are all true. You can only get one side of the story though. Last I heard she wants to post a blog of her own too, so perhaps you can Google for a second opinion.

I need sleep.